JULIA BY JULIA
15 years. I was born on a rainy day in 2008. My father was unemployed and spent more time at home. Without friends and without leaving home just for school. Listening to my neighbor's music all the time. It reminded me of Hell Boy, the boy with the twisted horns who jumped from one universe to another, one of his favorite comics along with the music of Kurt Cobain. My neighbor used to honor him by making satanic parties. He died at 27 as he had announced throughout his life, as Kurt. He was fond of manga. I liked that boy. He called me "Kokoro", heart in Japanese. I was 6 years old. I remember that day because I couldn't stop crying and my father came to comfort me. That was the day my father first abused me. At that moment I swallowed the batteries in the doll that my father had brought me from his trip. And they admitted me to the hospital. When I recovered I was not sure what had happened. I didn't know if it was a nightmare. They admitted me with a girl who was dying and we shared a room, I remember that night. Her whole family surrounded her. All her family cried for her, I cried for her too and I thought if they would cry for me if I were in her place, I was bewitched by all that group of people dressed in black with lit candles and that prayerful murmur in the silence of the night. I became fond of all kinds of funeral meetings that took place in the ICUs of the hospitals. I realized that everything around me was a lie, a theater. That life had nothing of truth ... nobody was who they seemed to be and that the stories in fairy tales had other readings, other meanings. That terrible things happened in life, children could die, and parents were not who they seemed to be. And that day I stopped being a girl. Something broke in me forever, something in me died forever and I dressed in mourning forever, for me and for the world, the great theater of horror.
ANA BY ANA
I like the color pink. I like to sing songs although I sing them with my own lyrics and I imagine the story I want. I like to dance in my room to the music blasting until the pictures and the shelves shake. I like to dress up, I like pink sequin suits, purple fishnet stockings, high heels, I love putting on makeup and doing striptis in front of my webcam for everyone and the faces that get on them, I always get that recharge your mobile when it's time to show your tits. I like to pretend that I cut my wrists in the bathtub or that I die suddenly, it amuses me. I like to piss off my mother when she's not drunk to screw her. For when he fucks me when he gets drunk and tries to kill himself. I like guys with motorcycles. I like speed. I hate my mother and I hate drunkards. I always get what I want if I put my mind to it. I have my rights. Friends don't last long. I get tired of everything, I can't help it, sooner or later I get bored. I love discovering new things to people and discovering new things to me.
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